Ruination

​The confluence of your body in relation to mine draws the gravitational pull to destruction.

I wonder if the sickening feeling in my throat is just love or perhaps that of ruination.

I asked myself I beg myself I draw myself closer, I want to see I want to know I want to understand and yet I just feel lonely.

Glint glimmer, glisten and glow I cannot form between us a home.

And maybe it’s time to tear myself apart just so that I’m whole when the next scene begins. 

Again Again Again

​I’m primed to vomit love again

To sweat the sickness from my skin 

I’ve spent the time like carding wool

To straighten out my twisted soul

My feet are weary and outlook bleak 

The nervous prize I’m asked to seek

You showed me clear that I’m the fool

I call it truth, you can’t be cruel 

A juggling match and a jesters show

They all laugh at me I know

One plus one is never two 

I eat the lies you declare as true