Wants

There's so much I want for myself.

To be loved.

To have someone hold me at night.

A friend who values me.

People who respect me.

To look halfway decent.

To lose 40 pounds.

To love someone.

To love me.

No one

There's absolutely no one for me anymore.

Fairy Tale Pt. 2

The princess was crushed to hear her best friend went through the exact same ordeal. With the exact same boy. In the exact same way.

Luckily Princess Stevie stole $40 from his wallet before she wandered home.

Update

I can barely get out of bed again.

I'm often alone.

I'm disgusted with the way I look.

I'm going nowhere.

Forgive Me

There's a massive crush of nothing around me. All I want is you but you ignore me and when I do get up the courage to ask you to come over you ignore me or refuse to kiss me. Like last time. I got too drunk. At sig ep. The place that scares me most. The only boy I liked there, the one I thought was safest. He took me back to his room and took off my clothes. I came home in my leather skirt and his shirt. I tried to go to sleep, I was lonely, lonely, lonely. You came over under some pretenses I made up. You started out nice enough... But then you lost interest. You didn't return my kisses, in fact you turned away. I thought maybe you weren't interested. I fell asleep for a few hours. I woke up to you touching me. I tried to kiss you again. You turned away. You took off the shirt the other boy put on me. You took off my bra and you slid off my panties. You got exactly what you wanted. I did exactly what you wanted. Then you went back to sleep. When we woke up again, this time late late late in the afternoon, I asked if you wanted to get dinner with me. You said no, you had other things to do. You left. Without kissing me. Have I fallen so low that I let you get away with this? I'm sad. I'm pitiful. I texted you. Said I was hurt. Pleaded with you not to do it again. You told me I never even tried. I didn't make it obvious that I wanted you to kiss me. It wasn't your fault. It was mine. God I want to love you. This is killing me. I asked you over last night. For dinner. You responded an hour later. Said you hadn't heard your phone go off. Lies. I said I was at dinner but we could study after. You just read my message. Never responded. Read. Why do you treat me like this. I want to love you. Your best friend got drunk and said you hated me. That I was a regret. How could you treat me this way. You hate me. You hate me. You hate me. Why? This is killing me. I feel so empty, so alone every night. I grew used to your arms around me. To the way we talked. To the way your hands felt on my body. To your words in my ear. To you. Now it's gone and you hate me I guess. What did I do? What did I do? What did I do? 

Forgive me. 

I'm pitiful. 

Sleeping alone

Sleeping alone is the lowest form of loneliness I've known. 

A fairy tale

Once upon a time there was a girl who probably wasn't a princess. Something happened to the princess and she really didn't want to talk about it. It happened three weeks ago. The princess went to Gabes bedchamber and drank a lot, then she and her friends headed over to Connors castle. When she was there she drank even more. She was really wasted. This guy started talking to her, his name was Jake, and the princess thought he was really nice. She got his number and she gave him hers. They talked for the whole night and ended up sitting on the sofa making out. Eventually she left and walked to Sig Nu to talk to Matthew since he'd been begging her to come over the whole night. The princess got to sig nu but was warned by everyone not to talk to Matthew, he was too wasted. She went in and talked to him anyways. They didn't talk about much but as she was leaving he called out to her "don't sleep with anyone!" The princess went into the hallway and called Jake and asked him to pick her up, the princess saw Sarah there and asked her if she knew anything about him. She really didn't other than that he was a sig ep. Jake came and picked her up and he asked the princess where she wanted to go. The princess didn't care so he said he was going to drive her back to his castle. They got to his castle and the princess was still really drunk but they went inside and went into his bedchambers. He turned on a TV show on his computer and they laid down in bed. They started making out and he was touching her all over. The princess sat up then, she said "I don't want to have sex tonight", she said "maybe down the road after we talked a while maybe later but not tonight". The princess put her finger up and waved it around as if to say no not tonight. She laid back down and they made out some more. The next thing the princess knew he was inside of her and they were having sex. Honestly she wanted him to stop, she really REALLY didn't want to have sex that night. About 30 seconds in the princess asked him "do you have a condom?" He said yes he did so she asked him to put it on. He didn't. He just kept going. Here's where the story gets shady and confusing. The princess enjoyed it. She made all the right noises and said yes yes! But honestly she would've preferred to be in her castle, would have preferred to be in her own bedchambers. Alone. But Jake didn't stop. And after he fucked the princess once (he came on her tits and face, then helped her wipe it off), he did it again. He shoved his fingers in the princess until she moaned, then fucked her hard. All the princess wanted was to be back in her own castle, in her own bedchambers. Her heart hurt. It hurt really bad. Eventually Jake came on her face again. He messed up her hair. Then he cuddled the princess and rubbed her back. He said "you can learn a lot about a guy from the way he treats his girl after sex." But what about before? Thought the princess. Jake fell asleep but the princess lay awake for a while. Finally, she too fell asleep. When Jake woke her up in the morning, they got in the shower. Midway through, Jake's hand slid it's way between her legs and next thing the princess knew she was bent over and Jake was in her. She made all the right noises again. When they were done they got out of the shower and the princess got dressed. All she could think about was going home going home going home. When would he take her home? Jake talked to the princess for a while, then he handed her a helmet and took her outside to his motorcycle. He told the princess to get on and she did. He drove her back to her castle and dropped her off in front. He told the princess "I had a great time! Let's do it again!" And Jake sped off. The princess walked back into her castle, into her bedchamber, and laid down on her bed. Then she got up. Jake never contacted her again. Then the princess got the local witch to brew her a forget-potion and she totally one hundred percent forgot about the night and it never bothered her again. And she grew up and achieved everything she ever wanted and lived happily ever after in a land far far far away from whoever Jake was. 

The End.