What Anorexia Really Feels Like To This Particular Person

What Anorexia Feels Like:

• Weakness
• Hatred
• Heartbeats
• Sweat
• Twitching muscles
• Tired
• Can't stop moving my fingers
• Shallow breathing
• Headaches
• Nausea

Let me explain. When I can find where my mother hides them I consume diet pills by the handful. These give me this horrible feeling of dying and living far too fast. My heart pumps so loudly I swear everyone can hear it, I sweat constantly, I can't stop moving my fingers and legs, I wiggle my fingers and touch them rapidly, one after another, to my thumb. My throat gets this horrible feeling of something stuck in it and my head kills me and my leg muscles twitch visibly. It is the most horrible feeling in the entire world and I would wish it on no one. 

Except myself.