21:44

I just want to go straight back to where I was before and it's the biggest struggle not to go find all my razors again and start cutting and I've been smoking cigarette after cigarette because life is killing me right now and I can't handle all this. I don't even know if I should be telling you this because who knows what you'll do but all I feel like is starving and cutting and dying but it's been so long since I've done all that shit and do I really want to start that again but all my body says and all my head says is yes yes yes.