You With Her

I'm laying on the grass looking up through the clear sky and warm sunshine kisses me. But I'm drowning. How could a day so pretty choke the life out of me. All I want now is you back. But you have someone new who you fall asleep holding. And all I can do is cry. And the water level rose until it poured into my mouth, open from begging you to come back. It swept down my throat and into my lungs and its drowning me until I'm just as dead as I used to be. Before you. When my skin cried from knifed open eyes and I counted to six hundred each day. But you were the sun that dried my tidal waves and I think the happiest I've ever been was when I'd wake up in the middle of the night to your arm across my body and your face buried in my hair. I wish there was a way for me to tell you how much those nights healed me. I never once thought about all the ghosts that haunted me. You chased them away. I was happier than if been for ages. But now that's ended and I just watched you walk across the campus with her reflecting on your eyes