Brain Dead

I didn't wake up yesterday,
Eyes open, body moving
Brain dead.
Words screamed into my ear
Rattle in the hollows
And end up vomited
Back onto the floor.
Why do the whites of my eyes
Turn black
At the mention of your name
And salty waves rise and fall
In the deep pit of my stomach
I've traveled to the East
And far to the West.
Searching for miracle dust
Or something that may cure me.
But somehow the powder
I scooped from the dry earth
Only clogs my arteries more.
Leaving me clutching my chest
And crying out again
Heart attack.