Learning Curve

I'm still learning

How to keep myself together

Without someone else's hands

On my hips pressing in.

How am I supposed

To stay in one piece

When my mind and soul are

Falling to a million pieces.

I'm wildly desperate

To find someone who cares

More about my words and thoughts

Than what I can do in bed.

I need the reassurance of

Waking up in someone else's arms

Body pressed close to theirs 

Two heart beats indiscernible.

And I wish there was someone 

Who would catch me as I flew

To kiss me between the words

I love you.

Someone who would pet my hair

And listen to all my fears

Then whisper that I can heal

Everything will be alright. 

I know I need to learn

To be my own person

To solve my own problems

To not lean on so many others.

But the road to happiness

Is flooded by my own tears

And I wasn't provided a boat.

I guess what I'm trying to say is

I'm lonely.